Why I Don't Blog (and other stuff too)

It's been about 5 months since I last wrote something. Why? It could be that I'm lazy (Ha! isn't everyone?), or it could be that I just forget. I'm not quite sure. But I've been thinking about it alot and came up with this:

I don't have anything interesting to say. I really don't. It's not even that what I want to say is the same exact thing as what everybody else has already said five times over.

I have discovered I'm the perfect fan*. I can't say anything interesting because I love everything. I don't know how this happened. Mikan? Love it! Resonant Blue and it's lack of anybody but Ai and Reina? Well that sucks for the rest, but Ai and Reina look awesome and the dance is really cool. Aya Matsuura's Kizuna? Relaxing. My god, I even love all of Koharu's songs. Sayumi's voice is adorable to me. LinLin is my favorite in Morning Musume. And how cute are those monkey outfits in Berryz Koubou's new PV? They're so goofy.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not one of those people who have no personality at all. I have opinions and dislike towards things like everybody else. I don't like to listen to some AKB48 songs and some THE Possible songs don't exactly float my boat. But H!P? If Morning Musume replaced all their vocals with computerized noises I'd chuckle and enjoy whatever song they made with that.

It's not even that I think, "Well this is H!P... I must like them." I genuinely like the music. If you told me to listen to a song and I had no clue it was H!P (and I couldn't recognize voices or Tsunku-ness), I'd probably still like it. There are some songs I like more then others but there's no songs I dislike.

(*disclaimer- I say I'm the perfect fan for loving all of H!P in a bit of a jest. I'm sure you love H!P just as much as I do even if you have more opinions on the music and stuff then me. Just consider yourself more cultured and smarter then I am!)

I was bothered by this for awhile. Questioning myself- do I truely like this song? Or am I lying to myself and liking it just because of the artist? Then I realized...

There's no disappointment.

I've read tons of blogs complainging about Mikan. Complaints about Berryz Koubou's Dschinghis Khan. Disappointment that this girl isn't shown in the PV, or that girl doesn't have any solos- again. None of that hits me. I only feel that giggly feeling of "Oh, I like this song!" when you find a song that really makes you feel good. I don't notice things like stupid outfits or strange sounding solos until someone points it out.

I have a very hard time finding my favorite in any group. LinLin of Morning Musume- but I really do love everybody else for different reasons. Berryz Koubou and Cute? Forget it. I'll pick one girl then go, "Oh, no! But that girl! I remember when she said that thing in that interview, or that one adorable picture, or that solo in a concert." There are too many variables. And I can't bring myself to dislike someone I don't even know. So many people hate LinLin. Maybe in real life she's very sweet and is just trying too hard to be the idol she thinks people want. We'll never know. It makes me uncomfortable to categorize people I don't know for real. In the idol industry I'm sure there's so much acting. Who knows what's real.

That sort of brings me to another topic. Girl H!P fans. I'm one of them, I know quite a few and I'm sure you do too. For some (most?) of us girl fans we're interested in H!P for a different reason then guys. Our favorites are our favorites because maybe we think "I just like to music" or "oh, I want to be best girl friends with that girl and hang out with her, she looks nice and cute." rather then "I want to bang her" or some kind of guy thought (was that a bit crude?).

((Not that I think all guy H!P fans are in it just for the girls. I know if I don't say this someone will come crying to me in the comments saying "HEY! *offended* I'm a guy fan and I like H!P for the music.". But you have to admit... The guy percentage of H!P fans are in for the pretty girls more so then girl fans.))

But another reason us girls might like H!P so much is we want to be up there with Morning Musume or Berryz Koubou, or C-ute. I'd give anything to even be a H!P egg. I think I'd be good at it. I'm cute (there are pictures out there if you care enough to find them. I try not to sound too big. Just what everybody has said many many times. I have a cute face. My clarinet teacher thinks I'm 12. I'm 16. I still get kids menues at resturants. Etc.), I'm nice, I have a good personality, I can sing and dance (videos coming soon to a youtube near you. Haha possibly), I'd be able to adapt to harsh schedules. I could do it. (I do have faults, but let's not talk abou those here. ;p)

This sort of connects to what I said above, about liking all that is H!P. I hear other H!P girl fans say that they want to join H!P... and in a few blog posts say that she hates Tanaka Reina and calls her a whore or she says the latest MM PV sucks. Not just simple dislikes, harshly worded hatred. Wouldn't that be sort of turn-off of what an idol needs to be? You sort of need to like the group you're in. I don't know. (I know Tanaka Reina auditioned to see if she could meet a member of another band. But then again, maybe she's not the perfect example of an idol) I just hate it when people insult any part of H!P so much and then turns around and proclaims they'll give their soul to be apart of it.

That's all I have to say. Sorry for not blogging often or if you're offended by anything I say here. I'm not trying to judge you. ;p